How in the world would I wait for someone who didn’t even become mine in the first place?

Waking up at 2AM, thinking what my future would be look like. It’s driving me insane, literally insane. I still wonder who would it be???

And suddenly, I get tired of all the things I thought would make me stronger

If I have the chance to disappear, I want it now.

I don’t wanna be remembered by everybody even on their slightest memory.

I love you forever, and always

I remember the time when I did not pay attention to what’s happening inside my mind. It was when problems comes after one. It was when I left hanging. It was when I thought it is better if I escape those cruel situations.

I always told myself that I needed to breathe away these problems. But problems seems to be so heavy. I let anxiety takes over me. I let all the things filled up my mind.

He gave me light whenever darkness comes across the sky. It was rare when he tell me all his rants in life. He didn’t have to give so much effort just to make me smile. And before I held myself from falling to so much emotion, I realized I was late for that.

I never thought I’d be this sad ’cause he finally found his universe. Who am I by the way? I was just a little girl who thought that the moon is following her when she walks.

A moment of silence to wipe the tears.

To the person I love the most.

I will never forget you, ’cause I don’t want to.

I love every part of you.

Your eyes. Your nose. Your lips.

The way you speak.

The way you smile and laugh.

The way you brush your hair.

I love the way you cared about me.

I feel safe every time I’m with you.

Every time you hold my hand.

I feel comfortable whenever I hear your voice.

I always love the way you sing for me.

To my dearest friend. To my special one. To the one I cared the most.

Sorry for not fighting back.

Sorry for letting you go.

Sorry for being weak.

Sorry for breaking your heart.

We made our promises with each other.

And I was hurt to think that I broke them.

I was hurt to think I let you go that easy.

I was hurt to see you crying.

I was hurt to see you breaking.

I was hurt to see you being hurt.

I was torn between you,

My family,

My decision,

My Religion.

I’m sorry for hurting you,

For causing you pain.

When I told you that I was falling out of love.

I lied.

It hurts so much I can’t breathe.

It hurts so much I cried.

You called my name,

And told me that you love me,

That you’re willing to fight for me.

But I refused to stay and bid you goodbye.

I left you calling my name,

Begging me to comeback.

But then,

I choose to pretend that I don’t hear you.

I ran as much as I can.

I hear you crying,

And it breaks me.

The moment I take my back on you,

I couldn’t move. I couldn’t make a step.

I just can’t.

Even if I want to.

You called my name,

And told me you love me.

That you’re willing to fight for me

But I reply you with goodbye.

I left you calling my name,

Begging me to comeback.

But then,

I choose to pretend that I don’t hear you.

I ran as much as I can.

I hear you crying and it breaks me.

That moment,

I wish I had the strength to fight with you.

I wish I had the right to be with you.

Years passed.

You’re now making a name

In the field you choose.

You are now a successful Engineer.

I’m glad you make your dream come true.

Pain is and always be a part of loving.

Without pain,

We’ll never know if the love is true or not.

Mistakes are mistakes.

Either we learn from them,

Or they destroy us.

For now,

Learn to forgive him and yourself.

People who knew how to forgive,

Are always the strongest.

Find diversion.

Be the best version you can be.

Learn to appreciate things that you do not give your interest before.

Learn to love yourself more.

In that way,

When you find someone to love again,

You can love him the best way you can..

For now,

Learn to move and move forward.

And cast all your anxieties to God.

Hindi katalinuhan

Ang batayan

Para sa maunlad na kinabukasan.

Hindi kulay ng balat,

Ang panukat

Para ipakitang tapat ka sa lahat.

Hindi panlabas na itsura,

Ang obramaestra

Para ihalintulad ka sa iba.

Hindi taas,

Hindi timbang,

Ang sukatan,

Para marating ang hangganan.

Hindi bilis ng paglakad,

O tulin ng pagtakbo

Ang kailangan

Upang gawing batayan.

Huwag gawing sandalan ang walang kasiguraduhan.

Huwag gawing basehan

Ang panlabas na kaanyuan.

At lalong huwag limitahan

Ang lahat nang may kapansanan.